his is in camp for 4 days, till friday his able to book out; sometimes hearing him telling me that how stress he is in camp, being fk by officer etc.. & for the pass few days my mood was not really good too, & i vent my anger on him :( sorry ! i'm sucha lousy gf , i should have understand ur situation.. (pls don't smoke so much too ) i wish u just can have more "trust& faith " in our r/s .. or issit being with me u feel "unsecured" ?! i'm starting to change..thou i still smoke, drink but other factors .. u knew i "did" i am letting go.. boy, ur really a nice guy ( only at times, i would say ur not initiative enuf but the love u showered me.. do really make me feel ( happy) to have u in my life.. cus, i never had a bf that i would be so honest to say every lil single things and ur the one; i promised not to lie even if my heart changes & i have fallen for someone else i will tell u (: u always told me that " ur used to it , nobody loves u " or mebe i shell put it this way ( i love u but, not as much as u do ) the things u have done, i know u put in effort * money can buy materialistic stuffs & majority of girls prefer "clothes, heels, bags etc " i'm one too! but, i love everything u gave me x3 my ex usually used money to buy what i want , ur exceptional * u do cards , medicine box & alot of things that is now displaying on my table (: i would just smile & tink of u this silly boy :) can't believed that ur younger than me by 1 yr and ur thinking is more matured den me.. we've been tgt for 4mth+ there's alot of things u knew abt me & wad am i thinking.. sadly to say " i still duno much abt u " ur ring size, shoe size , what u're thinking " it seems to slip off my mind * whenever u question me =/ this shows that i dint put in "effort" at all .. or i feel that is just necessary for u to know me.. & tat's all .. i'm so shelfish!! wad u say abt is right, i only know how to think of myself .. wad matter most is " i happy" , i would not considered how u feel.. i guess u've been suffering too, trying to be "perfect" in many ways just to please me !! ur afraid to lose me, u have been trying ur best to accompany me , u smoke bcus of me, u have been quietly enduring my temper & sms-ing me everyday telling me how much u miss me !! and do u know i miss u too! perhaps ur right, this period of time ( we will know, how "strong"is our r/s ) and are we able to be tgt till ur course end ?! think further more ( ur ORD next yr (sept) am i still be tgt with u? or by than we're frens?! sighs, i dare not think so far.. yesterday went to have dinner with darrick at chomp; his another good guy * he took cab down , scare i'm hungry .. hahs, he told me that he hate ppl close to him "smoke" but still.. i'm just social :) aftermaths, met eileen to boat quay ( chamber) drank the left-over bottle.. get to know some frens at there.. keith open red wine for us to drink & i went shebang to drink with zhi-wei frens & i saw vanessa (: eileen was kinda of drunk cus she drank quite alot, sabo by gary .. ha, but she's okay after she puke.. zhi wei sent us to take cab, back home at 3.40am ... terry is suppose to join us, but his sick ._.
2 days more & i will be able to see u :)
i will be waiting for u x3
random updates :
ღ met up with jocee & Dan last wk to bugis ( bought a specs) ღ
ღ dental appt last sat , next month i can remove my braces!! :D ღ
after 2 yrs & 4 mths ._. finally !!
ღ did manicure ღ fish & co for dinner ღ
ღ watched the movie " turning point" with terry,shan, melvin, his bro&wife ღ the world is so small, dint know that terry knew his brother.. lol~ the weather was so unpredictable* when we step out
it started to rain heavily.. trap with terry at bishan for 1hr+
till 3am, we decided to go; it's my 1st time sitting on people's bike & it's raining
shivered along the way back, cus it's so cold ._.
was drench, went back home to get changed & meet eileen ard 4am..
chit chatted till 5.30, terry sent me home..
i was so sleepy
terry's bike :) my fav colour " purple " thanks for riding a slow speed for me, cus u knew i was scare.. hahas 
ღ ytd met up with darrick, went town to get my lash glue & i bought a dress ღ
aftermaths, cab back to meet ck & eileen at serangoon for dinner..
ღ boat quay with ( jocee & eileen) drank GIN ღ
sis was kinda of drunk, don't drink so much next time ok?!!
we shell drink "cocktail" i think u would prefer that (:
zhi wei taught us a new card game! :)
reached home @ 4am..
ღ bf is gonna stay in camp till this friday =/ sighs, i miss him!! ღ
kuai dian chu lai !!
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nothing, n0thing @ all..
part-ii
Jennifer 21st b'day @ costa sand (:
ITE-NITEC (yi-lin, me, michelle )
ytd chalet was packed; & the paiseh thing was we went to the wrong unit
from F to S block -.- mich was the most funniest.. she thut is at downtown east;
she put 1dollar in & ended up in F block seeing
"eh" why got Indian ppl sia.. LOL!!
i guess jennifer enjoyed herself ytd, despite being sabo by her frens :x
happy birthday my dear :) * before heading down to downtown, me & bf went to T.M shopping *
i bought a " LANEIGE snow crystal dual base " - $55 bf bought his skin care products- Clinique & LANEIGE - $200+& got alot of freebies :)) + a white bag..
he seldom splurge on such stuffs; but, actually i influence him :x
and now he have alot of " steps to do everyday"
cleanser, toner, essences, moisturizer, sunblock, eyecream, etc
don't be lazy okay?! :D
[ skin-care $.$ bu ke yi sheng de!! ]
& currently i like that "SONY" T-900 :( it's been quite sometime;
but, will it be kinda of waste money hur?!
i'm still sorta confused " where shd i celebrate my 21st b'day " =/
i want a job too! i want my car license ! i want so many THINGS..!!
& most impt is " i want trim my frige luhs "
yesterday after the chalet, we're supposed to catch a movie @ T.B ( th-orphan)
everything was nicely plan * while waiting for shan& melvin to come..
we went to arcade & play..
challenge with that noob TK.ZL :x (initial d )
baby snap this pic , while me & roy were playing HD4..
he took his gun so high, it's bcus firstly his tall, 2nd
he tells me that don't have censor lei ._. LOL
cannot shoot ! alamak , his so funny..
& sadly bf & roy went to watch the movie; cus shan & melvin quarrel
and he left, leaving her alone -.-
she has no mood to watch the movie at all * so we sat outside
UOB, smoked & hear her out.. 2 freaking hours my st0mach was
so hungry =/ cus, i dint ate much during jennifer buffet;
sighs, wasted the tix money! but it's okay ._.
roy & us went to have supper nearby red hill;
stay over at bf house & acc him back to his camp in the noon..
u took the risk just to accompany me.. thanks baby! x3
i miss you so much :(
when can u don't be sucha sleepyhead..
sighs!
giving up does not mean u're weak, it means u're strong enuf to let go *
PART- i
ღ random pictures ღ
dine @ CENTRAL with
" eileen, cat , shan , melvin & bf "
finally
went to touch-up my tattoo last week
( the outline)
( colour change ) it's kinda of hurtful ; cus my skin
has yet to recover & i went to ink it =/
but i'm happy tat it looks more better now;
compare to the previous * it's worth the pain..
thanks baby (:
(previously)
( melvin drove us to Changi last week, & it's really a relaxing place )
we had our dinner; facing the sea`opposite the city is M'sia;
cool air breeze.. good place for heart-to heart talk..
& some alcohol & k-session* at the 2nd level *
(random shots)
(some updates) back 1 week - waraku with eileen, cat , shan , melvin & bf @ clarke quay; - bought a new top :)
- mustafa at night
- raining bar last weekend
- chatted with mabeline* outside R.B; smoked 3 sticks,
& the next day my throat hurts badly :(
-
buffet with roy, shan, melvin & bf at JP ( seriously, not worth $30)
i could have eat smthg better than that ._.
i'm not going to that restaurant again * - interviews
( hopefully i get a job soon) - bf cook for me cheese hotdog prata`
so sweet of him x3
thanks dear..
i know it's ur first time cooking for ppl rite? it's nice anw, 9/10 - baby order pizza hut delivery ytd* - pedicure & manicure..
- bugis with eileen & bf
- acc eileen to amk hub & met up with joanne aftermaths;
- pepper lunch with mum& baby..
- took out 1 of my ear hole, it's badly swollen :(
- gaming with b.f + roy- etc etc...
i'm so sleepy, i shell stop here* update soon! ( TK.ZL is now dota-ing while we're both webcaming each another)
serious face u have' boy :x i love u honey bunny !!
i'm still sick, cough like nobody business* holy !!
