feel like changing blog skin, but i'm lazy :( there's so much things i wish to say but, i'm a lost of words when i'm right here blogging :( yesterday, i heard this
"bastard" saying my bad stuffs to eileen.. he dun have the rights to say me, when he fucking duno me @ all.. it's kinda of irritating to have a
"friend" like him who lies and his character simply sucks to the core.. 1 word to describe him
-childish- i dun wish to bother much about him, neither he own me any explanation abt his
"AGE" to me it does not matter anymore :D
[ make sure he keep his mouth shut, 1 more time i heard from him regarding about my stuffs, i won't give face] can't imagine his someone who loves to twist and turn story, u want everyone to believe wad u say, come FACE-TO-FACE talk.. dun need behind people back say and ask eileen to hide from us.. or are u afraid that u're the one who lose out in the end ?! hahs.. seriously, such person ought to be taught a lesson in order for him to grow up!! enuf of this stupid fucker.. not worth writing a long composition about him.. or angry over this matter.. i rather keep my mood happy now!! :)
okay, photo's time :
cookies given by "jocee" :)
there's alot of photos but i tink i gonna put a slide-show in my blog..
i think it would be better :)
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this how i feel and wish to say:
i have decided to give a chance to terence.. thou i still have doubts in him.. or mebe i need some time to believe ._. i know this sentence might causes ur heart to sank but sorry baby :( i dun wish to hide and deceive myself.. i do have feelings for u, i feel happy being with u * but, i'm still thinking abt the boat quay "stuffs" u know wad am i referring about.. i duno issit the real "u" or u might just take me as "her".. sighs.. or mebe the problem lies with me.. i'm scare to hurt you! that's why i dare not think too far ahead.. i'm someone who plans for today but not tomorrow,cus u will never know wad will happen.. it's unpredictable.. time can make me judge things clearer.. i duno how long we might be tgt.. but still i treasure each and everyday (: contented is enuf *
time spend with u at "east coast" cycling together, heart-to-heart talk on the beach & ur shoulder u lend me to cry on.. it's been long seens i last sweat so much :D 20 pcs of nuggerts is unbelievable that u could finish all of it :x back to the first day when i first saw u at pub.. we dint talk to each-another.. only chit-chatted over the phone, u were so shy :) u lied to me about ur age too, but u're brave to have show me ur ic.. at least u dun have the intention to continue to lie, if not x_x (speechless).. thou, we duno each another for long, but time will prove everything?! yea?
starting to miss u when u're in camp :( i'm afraid of loneliness* but still i appreciate u took MC for me & those sweet-messages u sent me each day to "brighten up my life" thanks baby.. oh ya, and i like the way how u wore to bugis.. (matured) :D and it looks nice on u..
p.s: but pls dun suddenly when eating that time, give me the smile of "tsk tsk" u understand rite?
hahahs :x opps!
i did facial and massage @ mary chia today, shirley told me that my muscles are stiff due to stress..& i do feel pain when she press it :( urghs, i'm gonna become "ah-ma" soon liao... bought their MU-sun block.. :) baby acc me to bugis to replenish my FANCL supplements & we dine at uncle kitchen.. still like their chicken wing fried rice+ bubble tea :) aftermaths, we went to mustafa " bought -GUCCI ENVY ME perfume " thanks to jocee,actually i never been there before.. but that night after east coast.. we've supper @ punggol nasi-lemak.. lesnar drove us there,midnight shopping till 3am.. their perfumes are cheaper abit * den those retail? i guess so? hahs.. this few days, i bought "clips, 3 boxes of contact-lens, clothes, 2 pair of sandals & i pierced 6 holes, we went to band singer at plaza sing but duno located @ where.., we need to climb the stairs till exhausted.. we drank "sex on the beach" tgt with jocee and chee-kuan, baby and tat fucker..
baby,i'm sorry regarding about "joshua" :( i dint know things would happen that way.. he drove me to chill at liquid kitchen.. 1 jug of beer & on the rock "martell" i was nearly ._. i learn how to reject.. urghs, dun wish to elaborate more* as long u and i know it ourselves :) life now is so "freedom" cus baby is understanding :D but, of cus at times u may say "NO" i will listen.. movies& pepper-lunch with ck.. he bought me to NANA last week.. hmms, it's really not a place for girls. but, i do love their environment.. but, i will go with bf if there is another chance or so.. water day is horrible, i was shot by those guys @ there & felt so cold on the way back home ._.
ytd went over to bf house, while i was going back at around 11+ his place there rain damn heavy... even the umbrella also slanted,cus the wind was damn strong.. & both of us got wet.. baby was sweet to have go back home to take his jacket for me :) unfortunately, his soak wet.. i'm sorry.. i guess i was giggling when we're out at the road-side, cus it's damn funny!! hahahs..
gosh, this my longest entry...
hahs, baby was thinking in camp now wtf am i writing.. take so long..
actually, there's still alot to blog about.. but, i gonna stop here!! cus, i got smthg more impt to do.
ciaos! lastly a pic of without-make-up.. =/
=)
photo's are meant to be kept for memories *
me & eileen finally talk over our problems ytd,
and i hope this does not happen again (:
life has been ups and down for me, just went to pierce another 2 on my ears
no idea why, but just feel like doing it over again =/
i duno am i trying to ruin myself or just for the sake of fun?!
bought 2 tops & 1 pants & dine @ fish& co with mum..
i'm so sleepy and the cramps are killing me!
over soon
it's been long seens i update..
recently there's alot of things happened..
after 1yr 9mths.. we end our relationship on 9th april...
there's no reason, just mebe a break would be better for us
to give us time to sort out things & wad we do really want..
from the day i left you; i do really feel "opened" at least i don't need to hide anymore..
i'm free to go whatever i want, or whom i want to meet..
yes, i do feel hurt but i dun wish to express it out,
i wish to be strong.. but, i can't :(
don't feel like staying at home & think of those unhappy things..
i'm keeping myself occupied, hanging out with "eileen, ck, terence & zac
dota-ing, l4d, Le-Bar, pub, boat quay, k box, movies etc..
frankly speaking;
i dint push all the blame to u, cus i'm also @ fault..
i should not have lie to u that i went boat quay..
but u should not have log in my msn acc & calling my frens.
"trust" we both failed to have.. wad's the point holding on?
(to Jh ): i wish u all the best & i know time will heal everything
u will get to find ur nice girl soon * no matter wad life still goes on~
i will also t.c of myself (: i know it's tough & hurtful but still..
get over it soon..
thanks for the happy-moments tgt & the treats..
lastly: i would like to say thanks to those who concern abt me
& accompany me thru morning. (eileen, ck & zac)
appreciate.. lovess !!
( photos with eileen ) @ pub
mr guo :) he does resemble sec classmate "gary" 
went to pierce my inner-lobe today @ parkway..
photo soon! thou, it hurts more than tongue i guess..
chomp with terence & eileen..
hahs.. lazy to update..
sleeeepppyyy.
bought a sk-ll advance eye-treatment flim..
mac breakfast bought by dearest (:
thanks baby, u really know wad am i thinking..
as wad i'm craving for this morning..
ahhh, u make me feel LOVED..
went with sis to bishan to get her FANCL stuffs,
bought " 1 top from pur pur & another orange top from double index"
and one black belt :D
hahahs.. aftermaths we went to watch movie
" confession of the shopaholic"
last week bf and me watched the "jacky chan show"
but, i wish to watch the fast & furious !!
i'm so sians, jocee officially start work today,
hope she settle down with her job (: misses her on msn web-cam me..
bf is busy with his work, & hope he take.care of himself
i love u baby.
tired
went for an interview today.. thou i don't quite like the advertising co..
but, well see how it goes.. mebe i will continue to hunt
for other jobs (: anw, it's my first resume i sent & was called
this morning to attend their interview @ 4.30pm..
bf drove me there & aftermaths..
i bought a "SK-ll advanced eye treatment film"
i got bad dark circles :(
yesterday went to have dinner with cousin @ amk..
we love "long john silver" hahas..
& the box of alcoholic choco's are nice :D
( this few days i've been webcaming with jocee)
we have been seeing each another from noon- night.. LOL
( w/o make-up) it's so damn ugly.
&tmlo we're going town!!
