Monday, May 18, 2009


met up with jocee to "far east" on sat.. bought a black dress, 2 boxes of lash, earrings & a white bag :) aftermaths, went down with ck to boat quay.. suppose to meet shao wei and kahmun but the end both of them got smthg on.. went to find "joe & jason" @ sb.. that night was so emo ._. the pub reminds me of "bf" cus i never fail to go without him & i do really miss him alot ): it's a place where " i & him " met up for the 2nd time * but, bcus of some problems i left without letting him know`& i saw "wei-cong" =/ urghs.. one wk more, his gonna book-out.. i'm still waiting *
wish to hug u tightly & whisper in ur ears that i "love u " x3
how much i miss u, can u really feel it?
but, why u keep saying i don't understand.?
i won't be happy, if u're not happy too.. i care for ur feelings;
and i want u to know, love is to give & take..
alcohol to drown my sorrows.. thou, i know it's a wrong way to do so..


- went to leisure park k'box ytd , drank the left over martell & 1 jug of whisky;
i still don't feel the "kick @ all" i only know i'm feeling v down :( reached home at 4+ slept at 5am.. &i teared` suddenly, i think of wad darrick told me " i'm shelfish" i dun consider abt ppl feelings.. & it's true.. i'm sucha failure.. i will only start to realize wad has gone after a month+.. and i will start questioning myself.. why? and wad's the reason? this few days i seems to be so emotional :( i called him at 5+ ytd night, cus i've the urgh to hear his voice & my head is hurting that causes me can't sleep..


( when i wake up, or when i'm back home.. i will look @ this lovely flowers,
it reminds me of u, before u book-in u gave me this.. & i'm still
showering it with water & love )
* treasure wad u've now, before it's really too late *
somethings can never be the same again..
never can it be`

因为太爱你,所以会掉眼泪

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